Tuesday, July 27, 2010

re-connected

Sunday, July 25, 2010
2 miles
21 minutes

A whole month? Has it really been that long???

I know I've run between now and my last post, but I guess I wasn't feeling inspired enough to write anything.

Now I am inspired, though.

In my first post, I talked about God. I wrote about the separation that I felt, and that I wished desperately to listen to Him and feel his presence again. This last Sunday, all at once, I felt it.

I guess this narrative begins a few weeks back. Things started looking up for Germar and me. There are some job prospects on the horizon after months of uncertainty. Germar is excited to begin law school. And despite my lack of writing, I have been running frequently and feeling much healthier than I was feeling in June.

On Sunday, as I bowed my head in church to pray (although as I have previously stated, my connection with God did not feel very present) I felt overwhelmingly moved and tears sprung from my eyes. For the first time in more months than I care to recall, I felt the Holy Spirit inside of me. It was incredible; a mix between peace and joy and humility all at once. My heart is still so full from that feeling on Sunday morning.

The run was fairly uneventful. I was slow, but that's to be expected after taking a hiatus.

I hope to write more in the coming days about this reconnection, this kindling of faith that has sparked in my most needful hour. For now I will close with a simple "thanks." Thanks to Christ, for His mercy and grace in our lives. Thanks to family, thanks to friends.